The unique disintegration of our existence at the moment

Please, sometimes I’m just blown by how I could come up with the title, while being appalled by writing block in other, when I definitely need to write on important one.

I still haven’t been able to overcome the huddle of being online and offline, as well as being more responsible than I am at the moment. I know that I have to be the biggest cheerer of my life at the moment. But sometimes, it’s just hard to hit rock bottom all by myself.

Don’t worry I’m not at rock bottom now, I’m sane.

Recently I have been fed up with stocks movement (No, honestly, I’m not investing YET, but I’m feeling the FOMO, though not that intensively). 👦Wallstreetbets, GME to the moon 🚀🚀🚀, 🍋Citron Research, everything, you named it. Would I be able to explain what happened? Possibly. A bunch of hedge funds (specifically Melvin Capital and Citron Capital) bets short positions against Gamestop, which was termed to be dying under water due to apparent market shift. Obviously, you just need a good research to shout out $20 shorting, but somehow it triggered peeps from r/Wallstreetbets to rally and raise the stock up 1000%. Crazy thing, but I’m glad I was able to witness it, and follow it through. Know how things are moving online in real time is crazy. Things happened so quickly and simultaneously that it’s amazing how fast we could receive information.

In a way that’s relevant to our genius Hawking’s remark, our light cone has been reduced significantly in radius. Everything is so interconnect to each others now, and it’s true that the closer you get to the source, the faster you would see it happening, and whatever you do would be a correspondence to that.

I was kinda pleased that after reading chapter 1 of A brief History of Time, I felt like my brain expanded a little bit.

My experience with a brief history of time was perhaps, a very interesting one. I think that I was able to do that because I surrounded myself with people who were fond of reading. And that was a great experience for me, because I felt like by reading the book, I would not only enrich myself with knowledge about the universe, but also maybe help others to interpret it better as well. Who knows, one day, my recommendation would make an impact on you, and you would go out and search for the book, and somehow read it, and somehow recommend it to other people, and then, there come a circle of impact. I would, in that way, be happy to share my mind in a positive way, because then it would be a great honor for me to be not the center of the universe, but the center of a light cone. And to me that was a great thought. I feel like I can comprehend the 4th dimension now.

Would I ever be happy to wish upon the stars?

Nah, wishing, to me, is pitiful. Merely wishing something for oneself is passive. One must act upon what they envisioned. I think that’s another great way to live. If I don’t act, there’s not going to be a light cone, and there would probably no impact. I think the Brief History of Time would play a huge role in whatever that comes in my future works. I just hope they would be a great one. But there would possibly unavoidable bullshit,..Still, I do hope that it won’t be any fatal issue.

I was thinking of writing, and reflecting my days in Japanese. Here’s the dilemma, I felt much more confident now in term of speaking, but after all, I know that my bricks and structures are corrupted. Now that I realize, I have a nice gate and colorful wall painting, but the infrastructure is made of random recycled bricks adhered to each others with loose, mixing concrete. My Japanese is a literal mess without any organization. Maybe I should learn how to build a castle. I think I should ask my friends how to build a castle of Japanese (one that’s long lasting, functional and admirable).






Honestly I sounded like an idiot writing the above sentences, but I will continue to try my best. Please feel free to judge. It’s very much welcome.

Also I was just thinking, with the light cone, what can you do? We are now living in VR and cyberspace. Our kids would probably be emerged in it too.

Idk dude I just want to not be in debt and make positive impact to the world :D. The light cone gave me great thinking about what I should do now that have that spreading impacts for later.

Would one day aliens encounter our civilization and see this as an accord? Who knows. They better read the country’s constitution, but I wasn’t the one who wrote it.

Maybe I should practice writing my own constitution too. For a few stars and planet above.

Good night.


Published by Igobiebb

B (Q.Trang) is a creative multipotentialite who has lived away from home since fourteen, currently living in Tokyo city. She loves writing, cooking, swimming, talking to people and chasing thrills.

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