The world show up to you when you aren’t desperate

So now that I have finished my 6-minute writing challenge, I learned at least 1 thing:

1. You can do so much in such a short time. I was able to write more than 200 words with my open train of thoughts. The idea of committing to time and write whatever come to my mind feel so liberating. There was no judgement to make. It was just me tapping finger on the keyboard like a machine pumping out words on the screen. It was a great practice.
2. I’m sure the fuel is going to burn out after this, but I feel that I would rather spend my time writing out loud, visibly, rather than letting my thoughts sit in the dark. There are just a lot of things that I want to write about. But guys, how can you like my writing when I didn’t give much shit about your end though? As if the world turns to your favor when you least expect it. Or when you are not desperate.

I thought I was ok saying sorry to people. I didn’t realize it get harder to say sorry for things that I really didn’t want to deal with.

But running away from responsibilities and fail to acknowledge short comings are the worst. I would rather live with humiliation than guilt. Guilt is worst, because guilt is internal. You can get over humiliation because you might know deep inside you that you are clean. But guilt is just that you failed yourself to take action in the face of discomfort.

Also, who is competing for our attention?

Just realized that time is a huge assets. You have time on your hand, so you need to use it well. Everything that you give away: attention, thoughts, opinions, those take away your time. So you have to be careful where those things are going into. Because they are important assets, you should invest your time wisely. The fruit can’t be beard if the seeds weren’t planted. And time investment is possible.